Today

It has been a fast week for me. I can’t believe that tomorrow is Friday already. I have been extremely busy all week and I’m actually looking forward to the weekend. I don’t have any plans and I’m hoping for a quiet two days. Maybe I can finish the wall. I would like to finish this project so I can move on to other things.

I was thinking how funny life can be. I mean I never thought I would end up here, but here I am. Hard to figure some times if I’m happy or sad, but isn’t that how most people go through life. If you spend everyday sad, well, they end up putting you on medication. And if you are happy everyday, well, you still end up on medication. I think most of us just experience a normal ebb and flow of emotions in life. So maybe I’m just normal.

Control? I started wondering how much control we really have over our life. Can we control how our lives turn out? I mean control is pretty much a figment of your imagination, right? You don’t control life. You can cherish it. You can experience it. You can tolerate it. You can detest it. But you can’t control it. Things happen in your life and you need medication if you think you will control those things or prevent them from happening. The best you can do is try and keep and even keel about life. Don’t let the highs get you too high and don’t let the lows take you too low.

I think back to all of the mistakes I have made in my life. I think about all of the disasters. The heart breaks. The unexpected turns. The days of self doubt. None of it really matters today. All I can do today is continue to march forward. Continue to believe that everything works out for the best in the long run. Minimize my bad days. Take my vitamins. Eat right and try and have fun when I can. Believe that my life plan will continue to unfold as I envision it.

Don’t sweat the little shit. And remember, it’s all little shit.