I am Jack’s soon to be unemployed ass.
Well it finally happened. The company that I am consulting for has decided to release some of their consultants, including me. They were extremely nice and let me know now that my last day would be April 30. They are only required by contract to give me one day’s notice. However, my boss told me as soon as he was told. I was expecting this so it was not a big shock. I signed on for a three month project that lasted four months. Well actually, it was more like cancelled. They like to say it is on an extended delay. Either way, they will probably not start it back up until next year. I am sure I will be doing something else by then.
So now I am out looking for new employment. I am hoping to find a more permanent position this time. I like working as a consultant, but I think having something that will last longer than 6 months might make an interesting change. I have been on a recent interview, but I am afraid that they believe me to be “over qualified” for the position. I hate that phrase. How can I be too good for the position? Shouldn’t you feel lucky to get someone with my experience and skills if I am available and willing to do the job. It is actually a pretty good position, that could lead to me moving into the city permanently, which would be great for me. We’ll see what they say.
If something doesn’t come up pretty quickly here, then I may have to take my buddy up on his offer and stay with him for a while so I can find employment in NYC. I find the job market is better there and I have always wanted to live there. I will have to start sending out resumes using his address right away in hopes of getting some traction out there. I am extremely mobile and can move in an instant. Mobility is one of the benefits of having no ties and responsibilities. My family is all on the west coast, but inside I hear the sweet siren that is the east coast calling. Seems there have been a lot of life changing decisions over the last few years for me. Problem is that most of the decisions have been made for me. I need to get back in a position where I am deciding the path of my life.
Sort of related - I was reading Martiniloves dream blog today and it got me thinking about the reoccurring dream I have been having about being chased for well over a year. Turns out it is a common dream and is explained on the site AmberLynn recommended for dream explanations. My dream is not always the same, but it always seems to center around me being chased. Here is what the site says about the “chase dream.”
Chase dreams often stem from feelings of anxiety in your waking life. The way we respond to anxiety and pressure in real life is typically manifested as a chase dream. Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in our environment. Often in these dream scenarios, you are being pursued by some attacker, who wants to hurt or possibly kill you. You are running away, hiding, or trying to outwit your pursuer. Chase dreams may represent your way of coping with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting the situation, you are running away and avoiding it. Ask yourself who is the one chasing you and you may gain some understanding and insight on the source of your fears and pressure.
The pursuer or attacker who is chasing you in your dream may also represent a part of yourself. Your own feelings of anger, jealousy, fear, and possibly love, can assume the appearance of threatening figure. You may be projecting these feelings onto the unknown chaser. Next time you have a chase dream, turn around and confront your pursuer. Ask them why they are chasing you.
One may be consumed by their own anger, jealousy, love, or self-destructive behavior. For example, you may be drinking too much or exhibiting open hostility toward others around you. You may subconsciously be threatened by these actions which have been jeopardizing your relationships and/or career. Your dreams are a way of calling attention to these self-destructive actions.
Considering all the things that have happened the last few years, this explanation was pretty scary. I have avoided all the hard decisions in my life for years now until they were made for me. Time to stop running from life and start embracing it.
I am Jack’s extremely optimistic new outlook.
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